Will you believe them? Or will you sit still on wonder why good things never happen to you? Will you believe in fate or chance? Or will you find a way to make a path for yourself in this world... I have found today that, selfishly, my life is what I make it. I haver seen, in the course of 8 hours, the way a mind can go from rigid and structured to free and content. My day started horrible today, without money or an idea of where or what to do. And, in failing to find a way to obtain cash, my day was made worse. But, in realizing that I can make my life what I chose it to be, and my perception determines my success, I decided to press re-start and find myself in the ocean...
Where do you go when you are most lost? Today I woke up alone, and sad. I realized that for the next 7 weeks I have isolated myself from any and all things familiar. I thought about changing my flight, and spending only a few weeks here. I thought about flying a friend to meet me. I thought about locking myself in my hotel room and waiting for my time to end... then i took a breath and closed my eyes. Lesson #1: do not panic. All things will come to be in good time. Even if you do not know who or what or where or why. With patience, perserverence, and faith, you will find peace. Today I left my cares behind and headed to the ocean. She has been faithful to me, accepting me here as well as in Jacksonville. And she reminded me that, while the scenery is different here, her love for me is not. Where do you go to find peace? What do you do when you start to feel uncomfortable and panic? I have no friends here. But I make no enemies. I fall asleep alone, and wake up just the same. But, in waking up alone, I am free to choose my destiny. It will be one without fear and inhibition. My destiny might be, for the time being, half the world away. But it is, now, freedom... Are you free inside your heart and mind? Do your worries ever escape you? Do you realize that the box you throw yourself inside is only the beginning of restraint, and that your dreams can set you free? What do you do when you feel desperate? Do you go inside yourself and hide behiund your fears? Or, knowing that panic will pass, do you have a special place in heart and mind to set you free? I have found a new peace today- in lonliness- and I wander through it alone. But you, my friends, are with me and so I shall not walk alone...
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